June 2008

In June of 2008 I found myself in a place in my life where I was utterly in unhappy. Job, life, kids, husband were all apart of this. I tried for 9 years to be the perfect wife, mother, and friend to all those around me...but it seemed as if I was doomed and could never be perfect. My then husband and I were at a point in our marriage where it was make it or break it. I suggested that we go to counseling and he agreed to go. He went reluctantly and only went for two or three sessions, we tried the love dare from the acclaimed movie Fire Proof and I tried to make sense of the marriage. To save from telling some very private details about the marriage that my ex and I decided would be only discussed between he and I, I will say it was a nightmare marriage and we were both done. The process had started and the separation was to begin. We lived in the same house for over a year trying to make it work and trying to not make it work (hence the separation) It did not matter what I did or what I said...it was always my fault. I admit I was at fault as well in so many areas and that is what kept me in thearpy for the next two years until March of 2010. I needed to figure out what was wrong with me...and all the while my thearpists stated it was my ex-husband but I also had some much needed work to do on me and my actions towards others.