July 200-March 2009

This period of my life is one of tragic losses. The summer months of 2008 brought a reality to my mind that I was not only in love with my husband but that his verbal abuse had reached an all time high and my confidence was to zero. I was rebuilding that in my therapy sessions to know that I was to become a better person and I knew in the end all of these nights of crying were going to end in joy and happiness someday.. but I had to go through it. It is hard sometimes for some of us to look ourselves in the mirror and see what flaws we need to work on. We just go with the hustle and bustle of life and we do not take time to those things that matter the most, Kids, spouses and/or friends and family. Life is all about change and change is upon us each and every day. We all have to be open to change..and the change was what scared me the most. I lost my job in August of 2008 of two years and that put me through a living nightmare. I was going to file for divorce that day, August 22, 2008.. and I could not.. now I had take a million steps to figure out what I was going to do. So I met with my therapist developed a plan and went back to school to finish my degree. In January of 2009 I went to my first class, Anthropolgy and that alone changed my perspective on so many things. It opened my eyes to the world and there was no turning back.. I remember the very first song that was played when I went to class (she liked to play music from time to time for some reason before class would start) So she played "Unwritten" by Natasha Benningfield.. and so the change begins.....